2009.1.11

Well the last two pieces in my gallery have been deleted. I appreciate every comment and fave I received for each and every one of them. Thank you!!!!! You guys don't know how much it means to me to know that aside from myself there are others who liked them despite the mistakes. I do hope that once the new versions are completed they'll be just as good as the originals and that you all like them too.

Just to let you all know I'm also looking into applying to some online classes. Got some information on a few early morning yesterday. I'm thinking of studying business and animation. Course animation would have to be my first choice. But of course I'd also like to study a few other things. I believe I even considered history, never actually thought of that, but it's interesting to learn about past civilizations.

Oh, is anyone on TinierMe? I'm not usually into this type of thing cause I'm no good at socializing, but I thought it'd be fun to try out so I have an account on there. Let me know if any of you are on there.

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2009.30.10
Thanks to everyone who gave me their opinions in my previous journal. I went with a mini calendar with some extra blank pages for I don't know what. Anyone care to tell me what they're supposed/what they could be used for cause I have no idea. *bricked*

Also I've deleted everything in my gallery and scraps except for two, which will be deleted tomorrow. It'll be a while before I submit anything, months I think, but I suppose I'll post a few work in progresses every now and then. I'll let you all know whether it'll be on here or elsewhere though. I just hope I don't procrastinate TOO much. Any volunteers who're willing to slap me with a fish if I do let me know. XD

I've been meaning to ask this for a very long time, just never got around to doing it till now. So....when is your birthday everyone? Mine's August 10 th.

Also which do you think I should get if I can only get one of them, a planner or a calendar? Or what might you guys suggest that is helpful to keep track of things you're supposed to do and other such stuff like important events? I'm pretty bad at this stuff, and my forgetfulness ain't exactly making things better either so I need something to help me out. Also don't think walking around with post-its on myself will do either, what if they fall of or something? lol

[UPDATE]
Well that's it for free chibi sketches. No more will be available for a very long time, same goes for art trades and collabs. Sorry, but a week from now I'm going to be working on nothing but personal projects that have been gathering dust so no time for anything anything else really. I do hope that those who managed to get a free sketch are happy with what they received and I apologize if you weren't. I'm gonna work harder to improve so keep supporting me everyone.

Still have about 3-4 drawings that I'm gonna post throughout this week. Look forward to those.
[END UPDATE]

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Yo!

Just a heads up for everyone. I have four more drawings to post, afterwards I'll give it to the end of the month, PROBABLY, before I delete everything in my gallery, that or one week tops. Why? Simply cleaning out my gallery is all. Why am I cleaning it out? Well aside from me clearing things I don't want, not even in my scraps, I'm redrawing a lot of my old work and once I have those complete I'll post them up instead.

Oh and also, I MIGHT, which is a really big MIGHT, accept 2-3 requests. I'll let you all know by the end of the week, most likely Friday whether or not I am.

Thanks and good night.

For some inexplicable reason I feel like I’m pissed or maybe just very worried, though I don’t know for what. It’s so bad right now that I feel weak, and my stomach is hurting. I feel like I’m in some sort of daze. I can’t comprehend why I’m like this. Maybe it’s just lack of sleep. But I still don’t understand why I feel worried or pissed, whichever or if it’s both of these emotions. At the moment there’s no real reason why I should be feeling either……I don’t know has anyone ever felt this way?

Maybe I’m still just feeling this from earlier. Like this morning, I went out to the mailbox with our 3 month puppy. On our way back our next door neighbor asked, “Shouldn’t you have that dog on a leash?” I wouldn’t normally be pissed off at a comment like that, but with the tone she said it in and the look she gave me, it did. Course I just smiled regardless of what I felt, and said in a friendly tone, “He’s only a puppy he’s not going to run off.” Her reply, “He should still be on a leash.” Ok so he should, but I only went out to the mailbox which is pretty close so I saw no need to put his leash on him. Honestly, it was her attitude that really just pissed me off.

I’m just a little more sensitive than usual I guess. I didn’t get no more than 3 hours of sleep and when I tried to take a nap I kept being rudely awoken by my annoying cousins and loud barking. Plus I was worried that the dogs might get into some trouble when they went out for a walk earlier, always am actually, especially when I‘m not around to make sure that everything is secure and they won‘t get into trouble.

God, I really need to find something that can relax me during these times. Especially when I’m on the verge of a panic/anxiety attack, don’t get me wrong the breathing exercises work, but there should be something else I can do. Like for when I really want to hurt something or someone….Anyways, I’m feeling a lot better. It’s good to get things off your chest like this.

Oh, also thanks to all of you replied to my previous journal. I haven’t finished watching every suggestion, but I will get around to it. I’m watching the first episode of each anime whenever I have the time and finishing series I‘ve already started.

As for commissions they’re closed now. I’ll open them again, I just don’t know when. For the people who’ve already commissioned me, I’m working on them, a bit slower than I would’ve thought, but I’ll get them done hopefully by this month. I’m sorry for making you all wait.

I’m also working on some stuff. Like practicing with graffiti. I suck, but I’m trying so hopefully I’ll be able to incorporate some of it into my art soon. That would be cool since I’m trying to expand into other areas too. I’m pretty insane to be wanting to do all this, but I want to and hopefully I’ll find the right motivation that’ll get me moving. Which makes me wonder, what motivates you?

Does anyone have any good anime they can refer me to?

Please and thank you!